Big Foreheads and Ambiguity
#just a little piece
#a piece of my 21 old self
It pains my forehead when I think how it is exposed to you
It’s always open for viewing, whereas yours were never open
It is what makes my mom grin at
While it’s only seen your grimace
For now, we are not even friends
I wish I never entertained a conversation
Or thought of what would lead after the end to your question
Does not all leading questions bring us to changing answers?
I wish that many likely situations
Would not have made sense then, thus
Giving me a sense of finality towards
These thoughts swimming behind this forehead.
#life as we know it
#the human condition
So I’ve been watching a lot of miscellaneous lifestyle variety/documentary shows from S.Korea. I’m really liking the Human Condition episodes that star an all-female cast. Highly recommend everyone to check the episodes out on Youtube. Disclaimer: I am in no ways involved in production, distribution or management of said show. (If I was, it would be by all means shared amongst friends and not “friends of friends” - I’m looking at you FB).
Anyhow, the most recent English subbed episode has the female cast surviving only on part-time jobs, while sharing the costs of electricity, gas and housing amongst the five women. If they were celebrities that I had previous bias of, then my focus during the show would have been simply superficial: passing through disbelief, shock or second-hand embarassment about the job hunting and consequent behaviours. Fortunately, the casting team did not bother with K-pop idols or famous actresses. The theme though, gave me a lot to think over. No person I can name, will stick with part-time work that is also inconsistent unless it is the only option. Putting the discussion of more women than men left with this sole option aside, I instead thought of my own personal experiences with part-time work. Whether it be at a deli, a cafe, an optical store, a furniture store or a laboratory, I do not refer to such work as a career but as a job. I guess I always held onto that hope of a career that would grant consistency, security and recognition that few part-timers experience. But really - would working part-time jobs after a degree really have such a bad ring to it?
So here is some unexpected prose.
It takes a lot to stay where your dreams have dried up, but to dream up new dreams with no belonging eventually takes more of you.